We have been talking today which has been amazing.  I came to the realization that I need her in my life. Yeah I love her but I can't let her go like I normally do with people I love. Shes like air and without her I feel like I am suffocating. she also brings out the best in me. When she was crying last night my heart felt like it was breaking over and over again. I'm terrible with words and even worse on the phone generally I let my actions do the talking when I comfort someone.  She seemed to feel a little better after we talked for a while. Which I am grateful for.
She just hung up so I think she's awake.  I didn't want to go to sleep incase she had a nightmare and wanted someone to talk to. I guess I'll end it here. I need some sleep even though I am not tired.