I am numb. I dont feel tired anymore.  I don't feel hungry. I dont feel emotions anymore.  I don't know what to do. My wall that had been broken down seems to have rebuilt itself. I don't know what to write because I don't feel a damn thing. Perhaps this is because I know I am about to get hurt again.  I dont know. She hardly texts me and maybe that is a good thing.  All I ever do is end up hurting people and I know I have hurt her even though I said I wouldn't. I don't help and I am probably bad for her psychological state. I am worthless i know it but I can't feel it. What could have possessed her to make her even talk to a deranged sociopath like me. This journal is a waste of time. It doesn't help anyone and it just makes her feel terrible.