I started writing on this site as a coping mechanism.  It turned into a way for her to see a side of me no one sees.the issue is my mind is a mess and to write what I'm thinking, even for a minute, could take a lifetime. My mind is a scary place. I write about the stuff on the surface but I think even that is too much for people to handle. I am sorry I hurt you.  I'm sorry I am such a psychotic mess. I will not write on here anymore because it will probably only hurt you and I have caused enough pain in your life. You don't need me, you never did. And so I will fade from your life, thoughts, and memories as I have with countless others. As she wants and probably what is best for her.