I feel all alone. I guess that's a good thing because it's what I deserve.  I'm trying to see that light at the end of the tunnel but all I see is darkness so maybe ending my life would be a good thing. I won't hurt anyone again. I be a burden to anyone. Not like anyone would miss me. Yeah they'll be sad because that's what society says they should be but they won't actually care. Its at a point where I don't even want to cut bexause I know it wont be enough.  I just want to die. I haven't talked to her in a couple days but it's probably for the best. She doesn't need to hear about my problems and she has Dylan to help her. Fuck listen to me wallowing in my own self pity how fucked up is that. I guess I'm done. Just done.