So confused right now. She called me Dada. I'm not her daddy anymore.  She's with Dylan now so I can't be because we can only be friends. Another thing is I don't know if I can stop loving her as more of a friend if was her daddy. It has been so difficult to restrain myself from saying babygirl,  sweetheart, and the like. When she sent me what she said to her aunt I was so proud of her that I almost let it slip. Then tonight she was obviously in little space and called me Dada and I let it slip once. I don't know how to handle this right now. The fact I have been drinking doesn't help but it has been helping that pain in my chest. At least for the most part. For the first time in over a month I was just on the edge of daddy space but had to restrain myself so much. I just miss my babygirl so much.  I know she was probably high and just wanted her little fix but it's kind of messing with my mind. I am not sure what to do. I should probably ignore it and forget it happened.