She was right. She isn't Rachel. Which is why I gave her my whole heart. I'm not Dylan which is why she didn't give me hers. She thinks I don't care.  If I didn't I wouldn't check her various social media stuff and Ds and SG a million times a day to see how she is doing. She posted something on facebook that i assume was for me would have liked to know why she was mad at me then although I guess she wasn't with me anymore by the time that happened. Anywho this Pooh bear still really misses his Piglet. More than she'll ever know. I still wear the bracelet she made me. I'm generally not fond of them but she made it. If anything I guess I can view it as a friendship bracelet lol. Not that she still wants to be friends with me. I don't know what I did to make her so mad at me. She always seems pissed at me when we talk. Probably because I'm being such a little bitch about this whole thing. I need to stop being so fucked up.  I need to learn to stop loving again.  To stop being nice. To stop being walked over by everyone. To stop caring what other people think again.  For that I need to feel some self worth I guess. I just don't right now.  I was trying to be a better person because she deserves the best. That got me really far*sarcasm*. On the upside I have a Skype interview tomorrow for a job in Florida with Honeywell.  Hopefully it goes well. I'm not as prepare as I should be and I have been having trouble sleeping and have started feeling dizzy when my chest isn't hurting which is kinda a catch 22 but I'll be fine. Just have to fake like I'm fine. I can be pretty good at that when I need to be. Oh yeah I was able to eat breakfast without throwing up which was nice for a change but dinner still did and so did Jessica's snicker doodles which I felt extremely bad about and apologized profusely to her for it. Even if I feel like Roger but Benny still ended up with Mimi I guess I should be happy. My life could be a lot worse. Just another learning experience although not sure what I have learned lol. Guess this is more of a general update. Doubt anyone will read but if you did thanks for making it this far.