Not allowed

Not allowed to feel bad. Not allowed to have a bad day. Not allowed to feel safe. Not allowed to let anyone know how I am truly feeling. Not allowed to be negative. Not allowed to be annoyed. Not allowed to be myself. Not allowed to have problems. Not allowed to talk to anyone about my nonexistent problems. Not allowed to be alone. Not allowed to have friends. Not allowed to be weak. Not allowed to be vulnerable. Not allowed to be stressed. Not allowed to cry. Not allowed to breakdown. not allowed to get angry. Not allowed to be sick. Not allowed to have issues.  Not allowed to have opinions. Not allowed to be fat. Not allowed to eat. Not allowed to die. Not allowed to cut. Not allowed speak. Not allowed To complain. Not allowed to think about myself. Not allowed to be unhappy. Not allowed to be unhealthy. Not allowed to be skinny. Not allowed to be ugly. Not allowed to be attractive. Not allowed to have a panic attack.  Not allowed to have anxiety. Not allowed to be jealous. Not allowed to worry. Not allowed to drink. Not allowed smoke. Not allowed to live.  Not allowed to die. Not allowed. Not allowed to ask for help.  Not allowed to stay quiet. Not allowed to care. Not allowed to love. Not allowed to be apathetic. Not allowed to hurt. Not Allowed.