So, I get to work this morning and my co-worker informs me that I am going to get forced to work a double shift again. Its a long story how he knows and I didn't know ahead of time so I won't get into an explanation. Bottom line is I got forced to work a double again and I was extremely pissed off about it. Plus, it simply upset me. I actually felt like I wanted to cry like a baby. I got out of work late tonight so I ended up working about 18 fucking hours! Its 1:30am now and I have to get up at 4:45am to go back to work. I'm so tired and pissed off that I don't even know if I will be able to sleep or sleep well. I am such an emotional mess I also can't stop thinking about cutting. It helps in a way but makes me feel worse in other ways. I'm a mess. Get another job some might say and I've thought about it but there are some things to consider. Its not easy at all to find a good job that I would like and pays well and offers good benefits, etc. Also, this job pays well and I have a fair amount of bills and for most of the roughly 6 years I've been with this job I have really liked it. They have there faults but overall this company is a good company and treats their employees well for the most part. I also can't ignore the fact that I feel the biggest reason why I don't like my job right now is because I am in a severe depression. This has happened before and I have quit jobs I probably shouldn't have. The reality is I am very depressed and hate my job right now and just don't know what to do about it. I'm so sick of hearing myself complain. I suck!