ashleysmom

Sunday not feeling too well hubby was sick last week and I guess I got it now..so on top of not sleeping now I am not feeling good! Again another argument with kate doesnt want to go to church with...

well Sat I am so tired I didnt sleep at all last night, I just kept on watching the life slip away from Ashley and just being there and seeing her turn white and lifeless, it is so hard how do you...

Had an Ok day yesterday we baked and had my neighbors over nothing else to do with all the snow.then got up in the middle of the night couldnt sleep images of Ashley passing in my head and off...

well its Friday I took off to take Theresa to the Dr and thought I would have the reat of the day with peace and quiet! but course not ! We have to get up to a foot of snow! so no school!! oh well...

Thursday had a bad night I went to the store to print out the photos that the photographer sent me from last yrs competition I cried when they printed out, then got home and just couldnt stop...

Having a hard time focusing again today dont know how many times I went to do something and forgot what I went to do!!It stinks I feel so lost so empty, I try to keep myself busy but that hasnt been...

Stopped by Ashley's grave tonight on my way home from work just sat there and cried, never going to be the same,She was and is God's angel,I wish I could have made all her pain and hurt go away that...

Warming up nicely ! I just wish I was in a different time! Im at work I keep going to do something then forget what I was doing sometimes I feel like Im ninety yrs old. I wish I could have my old...

About time the weather is geting warm! I am so tired of the cold I want to put flowers at Ashley's grave and between the cols and the deer !! so it will be nice to plant some stuff soon and hoefully...

Just trying to get thru the day, I try to keep busy and keep my mind occupied not easy,I look at her pictures and see that wonderful smile I want to reach out and grab her,Just wish I really could I...

Yet another Monday, nothing seems important anymore, I have such a feeling of emptiness, I still expect Ashley to pull in that driveway and this will have all been a bad dream, but it never...

Sunday night didnt get anything done this weekend, went to Theresa's bball game then basically stayed home I have no ambition I dont want to do anything I feel like its getting harder not any easier...

Wow made it to Friday! it was a long week, I went to compassionate friends last night such a nice group of people, wish they met more than once a month, I have some of their numbers to call if I...

Thurs at work, finding it really hard to focus,so depressed lately,just wish I could miraculosly change things! I sit here and look at Ashley's pictures all over my desk and cry, why did she have to...

OK its wed night had my couseling session I guess it went ok, but I dont think he really can understand he even said today they say losing a child is the worst kind of loss,I dont know who they is?...