well Sat I am so tired I didnt sleep at all last night, I just kept on watching the life slip away from Ashley and just being there and seeing her turn white and lifeless, it is so hard how do you keep going? I want to scream at God at pound the walls sometimes! I dont know this has not gotten any easier I think Ashley would want me to go on but I know she would understand that she was my life and I will need time to move on how do you lose the most precious thing in life and keep on???I know if I didnt have other kids that depend on me I wouldnt still be here.....
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You have to give yourself time, and you are right Ashley would want you to go on and be there for the other girls. She knows you love her and she knows you are missing her and always will. One day at a time and that is what you are doing. You are doing okay, you are going through all of the emtions that there is......hugs....Pam