Stopped by Ashley's grave tonight on my way home from work just sat there and cried, never going to be the same,She was and is God's angel,I wish I could have made all her pain and hurt go away that has been bothering me so much lately, why did she have to endure so much and how scared she must have been, couldnt move couldnt talk and I couldnt do anything to help her I feel so useless,why couldnt someone have saved her? why did she have to go?I dont understand I guess I never will,why didnt her grandmother who passed look over her? I wish this would all go away,I guess nothing is guaranteed in life y'never know what can happen and what is around the corner one day I have everything a husband a family a nice home and the next its all meaningless,I am walking thru hell.....
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I know what you mean by feeling useless. I felt the same way for 8 yrs when Michelle was going thorugh that disease. I just have to remember that I never left her side, and I know you didnt either, I know I will never understand either, why this has happen. It will be 9 months tommorrow that Michelle passed away. I will be going to her grave and I know I will sit there and ask the same questions over and over and I still havent got any answers....Take Care ((((hugs)))) pam
I feel so bad for both of you. If I could I would send you Angels with answers. Sometime, somewhere, we will understand but the waiting is hard. I love and miss you Branden