ashleysmom

well Theresa's team lost oh well still have anither game on sat, I go to my counseling tomorrow,not sure if it is helping I think I get more out of talking here they really dont totally know what Im...

Very cold out again I am sick of this! I want the warm weather,I feel very down today trying not to statrt crying, so I am just yring to move along,Theresa has another bball game tonight she was so...

Well made it thru another day, Today My husband went with me to church,he usually doesnt go he really isnt catholic but today they where having a blood drive..Ashley had come back home the day of her...

Another night here I had a better day Theresa won her game next game is Tues night she was sad after the game, she told her grandma something was missing ! God I hate this but then some of T's...

I really had a bad night! arguement with Kate then it just got worst from there I broke down tonight cried for an hr and it just didnt get any better.I miss Ashley so much I cant stand the pain...

Another night, I long to see Ashley so much My heart is just breaking, I miss and love her so much..I wish I could take a break from all this pain but its nowhere in sight, I want to get her stone...

Thurs at work Im having a hard time focusing , I dont want to be here I dont really want to be anywhere, but anyway Im here,Kaitlyn stayed home from school today, now she is calling me wanting to go...

Here it is another night , I contacted the photography co. that took the pictures of last yrs TOB Atlantic coast championships, they are going to give me all of Ashley's pictures for free! of course...

Last night was a rough night I didnt sleep again,I was soaked from sweating. I cant stand this why did this have to happen I wish she never got her license and I never got her a car! my life is over...

well just finished dinner and my husband all of a sudden disappeared, he came down ate then gone again, so I went upstairs and he was lying in bed crying, I hate this we are in so much pain I hate...

Well I was up half the night crying so I didnt go to work today, ran out to the store not in the mood to do much.. I hate this I never thought my life would ever be like this I hurt all the time, I...

Made it thru Sunday went to church early my 2 youngest girls went w/me they were actually good today, I was crying as usual in church I just cant help it .I dont understand why she had to leave, why...

Sat night I have a basement full of kids kaitlyn has some friends over for her 15th! not much in the mood but ! especially since some where Ashleys teammates it just seems weird not have Ashley...

Im at work crying so hard Im soaked I watched a video of Ashley that her coach did, and I just lost it I cant believe this nightmare! I just want to go back in time and changed everything!I hurt so...

I almost made it thru w/out crying but not quite, I lost tonight, Its so hard Its such a lousy feeling,my heart aches everyday I miss her so much, I got another letter from a college it hurts so bad...