ashleysmom

Well not sure how to re invent my life I am trying but always seems to go backwards, there is no easy way, I know Ill never know why this had to happen why my kid why anyones kid..this past weekend...

So glad that Turkey day is over , not looking forward to Xmas..I went last night and met some of my Compassionate friends at the mall to set up the xmas there and we put all of our kids pics up ,it...

Well not sure how Im feeling, I havent really cried but I feel like im in a daze..just seem to go thru the motions get thru each day, but somehow feel like im hanging, I dread the holidays last yr...

Well made it thru the 1 yr mark, it sucks...I went to the cemetary...why did this have to happen to you! it doesnt make any sense at all...so young so full of life and energy,seems so unfair,you were...

Ashley I want to hear from you.......

Wednesday last yr was full of hope,then vanished in the next 5 days...not sure how Im feeling, just seem to be "here" not crying , not much of anything, wish sometimes I could disappear..I havent...

Friday I went to all souls mass, I cried thru the entire mass was like yesterday, really suckedI cant believe this time last yr I was in the hospital sitting next to Ashley praying and watching her...

                                 ASHLEYA is for affectionate, a heart of gold.S is for selfless, a generous soul.H is for happy, lovely child.L is for lovable,...

Well got thru the weekend, we dropped off Theresa and Lauren for their weekend at comfortzonecamp, thanks goodness for this place I can not say enough about them, they are wonderful, Lauren was...

well its taken just about a week but I think I am slowly rebounding, sometimes I want to scream and yell and tell the world how pissed  I am .How could this happen it all floods back , why I thought...

Friday felt like a long week, a draining week,Glad its over, went to my CF mtg last night, there was a new mom there lost her 4 yr old , so sad, It was the 1st time I got thru a mtg w/out totally...

well trying to get it together, we just got a call from the lawyer,he will take this case I am so nervous I dont know why but I guess I know this will bring things up all over again ..I am still...

Ok well have many issues, first I have been reading almost eveything I can , I want to know if there really is life after death, I have read  abook from a psychic, and one of the paragraphs he...

OK well back from the conference, was good ,some parts were hard, but all in all good..Unbelievable how many children die evey yr..so so sad...did learn some stuff did some crying even laughed...

Its been awhile since Ive written,I just about make it thru the day, with work the kids ,dinner, fall ball ...I dont have the ambition anymore or the strength to seem to keep on top of things, I keep...