Sunday night didnt get anything done this weekend, went to Theresa's bball game then basically stayed home I have no ambition I dont want to do anything I feel like its getting harder not any easier I miss Ashley so much I hate this I really hate what my life has become, yes I do have other kids and need to be there for them but I dont want to I dont want to do anything I wish I could just disappear, I want the pain to go away and I want Ashley home safe and sound!I cant stand this.why I wish I knew the answer ,I wish it had been me in that accident and not her!I dont know how Im getting thru this my feelings will never change ,there will always be this humongus hole in my heart and nothing will ever change that..I will forever be sad...