Loved1
Status: "One of the greatest freedoms is when you realize what you can't control." Michael J Fox
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I spent most of yesterday watching tv in bed doing nothing except dishes, got dressed into sweats, and walked doggie. I haven't dont that in years. It felt good. I started a fast I do monthly...
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Today Mom asked if I Ever chose a good guy. I realize now it was critical and I am learning to be less self critical. I said I no one is perfect and all good or all bad and I overlooked some...
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I often want to cry. I know I have some work to do to process some of the emotions of this breakup sadness/anger. I guess I get too comfortable living with the discomfort. I was thinking...
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Today I got a cell phone text message from ex telling me he is going out of state to confront his dad about abuse he remembered after their previous visit, his only amiable visit with him ever,...
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I am really sad a friend here chose to leave because she wasn't feeling the mutual support. I had her on my mind a lot and just knew I wasn't reciprocating in a way that let her know, and now it...
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Things are progressing along. Every day I don't contact my ex I am left with the memories to process. I have read from Patricia Evans that the a way we heal from verbal abuse is by recogizing all...
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I am not contacting my ex and it is hard. I know in wanting to be kind the best thing is to stay away, because I feel hurt and angry and I need to learn from experience bringing this need to heal...
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Today I wanted to come on and mention my temporary job ended and it had allowed me to be online regularly, now my online use is unpredictable.I have maintained distance from the exboyfriend, he is...
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Today was a lot better than yesterday as far as feeling calm and serene. I showed up to Al Anon and it being a semi-holiday (New Year's Eve!) I happened to have a key to the meeting room, so we...
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My birthday (37!) yesterday was nice, I did it for me, I spent day doing things I enjoy and got to have a nice dinner with Mom & Dad. I took myself to a really nice lunch and even got myself a...
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Ok, wanting to release expectations as I know my serenity depends on letting go of expectations, tomorrow is my b-day and those closest to me, family (neglectful though well meaning) and off and on...
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I got some perspective here today. I have strengths to tap into. I have support. I have opportunities to make healthy choices. I don't have to let someone else drag me down. I don't have to...
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Yesterday was really a "backslide" for me in this off & on relationship, just me giving in out of feeling obligated/guilty when he is like I have continued to say "a mess", making progress in some...
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Christmas holiday involved much last minute preparation with gift purchases and cleaning for me, and I'd come down with a head cold (still fighting it though back to work today!). I felt bad for mom...
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Gratitude list...Today I am grateful for working with friendly people, remaining tactful when feeling pressured, irritated, stressed or offended, kindness, patience, my healthy, my freedom of choice...
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