bananna

things are going ok. but my boyfriend is such a moody sunnuvabitch sometimes. i kinda feel like i just have to ignore it. i smile sympathetically and nod, say "yeah?" encouragingly, and just keep my...

i have to tell this story, before it fades away. i am so proud, and learning that it's not just myself i am proud of, but him as well.for two eclectic and bizarre people such as us who typically call...

i don't know. i keep saying that leaving is not an option, but when he decides to sleep on the fucking couch with a bottle to piss in so that he doesn't have to come into the stupid bedroom to be in...

i feel that, if he and i are to remain together, we both need to participate in finding ways to communicate that are not blaming or spiteful or cruel. we both need to find a way to alter our...

yeah, it's ok to look at an expensive car, to get all into it, to get into the idea of buying a new car, even if it isn't the expensive one. and i've been supportive of that, i really know that i...

as far as conflict, anyway. things in the relationship feel pretty good. very close. fairly stable. when i think about it, it really seems pretty easy that all i have to do is listen the moment he...

just a little note to self about weird feelings last night. i think that they were inside of me, and that i was projecting them outward to create a scenario where i could feel anxious. i was going to...

so things are going fairly well. i am learning how to be responsible for my own feelings, and he is visibly responding to that. maybe because he in fact is more sensitive, not just to his own...

something changed since i talked to him. it feels more tender. part of it i think is because he is sick, and it triggers all my little maternal nurturers. but another part is that i felt like i said...

i really need to talk to him. but i don't know what to say.things i would like to see stop:telling me he's leaving when we get into a big explosionblaming (which he has been improving a little)the...

dear boyfriend,it's hard to repeatedly feel like i am causing you more good than bad. i want more appreciation, i want more affection, i want more pretties and more lovelies and more sexies and more...

i should keep writing even when there's nothing going on, just so's i can remind myself when reflecting that there are times when there is peace. it's superbowl sunday, and he might go watch some of...

...how he could seem to hate me for aspects of all the things he seemed to love me for when the relationship was beginning. or for things he still says he admires to this day.i'm regaining some of my...

yaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!am i cut out for this? am i cut out for this? am i cut out for this? can somebody please get through to him for me? because i...

dear diary,you know what pisses me off? that he said that it's clear that i have jealousy issues because i felt jealousy when i thought he was on the phone with a female client. isn't jealousy...