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- i realized about a week ago that i have spent the last 8 years helping my partner pretend that he doesn't have a mental illness. i have spent the last 8 years diffusing and caretaking his reactivity.when it's good, it's good, and i just want to let...
- i get so annoyed by people who don't believe in my intolerance. fortunately i live in portland, which is the food allergy capital of the world, so i can still dine out. but sometimes i have to ask those very pointed questions about...
- hopefully others might join soon.in trying to comprehend the pain that i am feeling, i have read numerous articles on pet loss. they all have the same theme: that losing a beloved pet feels just as painful as losing a human family member, if not...
- i recently lost someone i was very close to just over a month ago. i feel like i have been doing what is necessary to take care of myself and help me process my grief in a healthy way... even though it still hurts like hell... but i'm not sure what...
- so I commute by bike. which is great in that it gets me daily cardiovascular exercise and really helps cut down on that buzzy constant body pain. and which sucks because you'd think that after months of doing this my body would feel used to it. that...
- i'm in this intensive support group for depression, which is, as you know, a very common partner with fibro symptoms. i'm having trouble finding one for myself that feels encouraging, that feels like something to which i can relate. so far i've only...
- i've been on a low dose of cymbalta for just over half a month. it has actually helped with the pain significantly, giving me more motivation to be active, which in turn has led me to getting plenty of exercise and eating better. it was prescribed...
- i think it's more like a ptsd. but his reactivity/volatility can be very much if not exactly like those of someone with bpd. i believe they are very similar disorders, anyway.so i'm not officially an "SOB." but i'm still here to stay in this quiet...
- i've only been on cymbalta for a week, but a couple days ago i experienced about an hour without pain when i woke up in the morning (been taking it at night while i adjust to the sedating effects but going to switch to am). when it came back it of...
- so i got my blood tests back and my thyroid, liver, kidneys, iron are all fine. my d levels are low even for someone taking supplements 1-2x daily, but i don't feel that it's a direct contributor to the pain, although i will gladly take more...
- so i haven't seen a doctor yet, which means i'm not diagnosed with fm, and may not even have it. but my body is chronically aching. i'm not even sure how long this has been going on, since i tend to repress both physical and emotional pain. but in...
- this is what i have learned from my own experiences:validate your bpd SO's feelings when he/she is expressing a fear. listen and try to understand these feelings with an objective perspective, and be honest with your partner that you are doing, or...
- so it's been a year since i've been living in this new city, in a separate residence from that of my highly functional bpd boyfriend. and it's been since june of 2012 since he and i lived together for one tumultuous, heart-wrenching, crazy-making,...
- what happened to Dynamical? she vanished...
- i knew it was coming, another blow-up, but i'm just so tired of it. seriously burnt out and unable to participate in his drama. the trigger was the usual- surprising me by finding a threat where i wasn't expecting it. i've learned to accept this...