bananna

i was dreaming that he and i were talking, and we got on to the subject of a woman that he had met while he was in LA over the weekend. i think that i kept asking questions about her and he kept...

granted, i can't change 31 years of professional practice in emotional suppression in just the few short days it took me to realize that this is what i have been doing most of my life. however, i can...

last night he fell asleep on the couch. we've been talking, and we've been considerably closer and actually affectionate the past couple of days, but i still want to give him his space.i took a...

i feel like everything is moving v.e.r.y. s.l.o.w.l.y. slowly digest everything as it comes, and just listen, take it in. respect feelings. i have to respect his feelings even though i obviously...

he actually is insane. sometimes there is no getting through to him. none.i just don't know if i can stand in the force of slut bitch whore fuck you anymore.trying to acknowledge what i bring to the...

i feel alone. hopeless. helpless.dear sir or madam,i would like to inform you of my resignation from life. thank you very much for providing me with 31 years of adventure and fun and catastrophe. and...

at midnight tonight. it may be a gentle and sweet reunion, it may be bittersweet, it may be bitter, it may keep me up bawling all night. but at least he's coming home and i get to smell his armpits...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrMmr1oMPGA

isn't it one of the stages of recovering from a loss?i feel fatalistic right now. i feel like he is never going to come home, that he is going to send for his stuff, and i will never see him again,...

I am sorry for all of the pain I have caused you. My sweet, tender love, I never wanted you to think that I was going to abandon you. Nor did I want you to think that I do not accept and love you for...

i'm so up and down, but i truly am a generally happy person when life is just sloggin along.it's strange and unexpected, this sense of redemption within such a short time of him being gone. he was...

it seems as though it is all coming to an end. all my love and hard work down the drain because i had to go and stand up for myself.i almost, ALMOST, wish i could take it back, and just continue to...

i am still having trouble getting past how upset i am for who my boyfriend has been in the past few days. i was starting to feel more positive until he began criticizing me tonight about how sloppy...

it is nice just to be around a supportive group. interestingly, my first meeting discussed the topic of boundaries.things happen for a reason.

i am going to start going to CoDA (codependents anonymous) meetings. i called the crisis hotline tonight just for some guidance, and i received strong support. i realize that i want this...