bananna

last night he asked me if it was really worth it to me to be with someone that's as loopy as he is in relationships. it was a genuine question, which i'm not even sure i really answered (or needed...

maybe, well, probably, it is true, that i am no longer the woman he fell in love with. in fact, i believe that the woman he fell in love with does not exist, as she was an idealization, a fairy...

am i liberated or am i longing?am i free of headache and full of heartache, or free of heartache yet full of heartache?is he gone forever, or just gone for now?what hurts the most is that magic that...

i don't know what to do or how to feel. i'm in an emotional limbo right now. chaos. of course, with HIM, this is nothing new. it's just that it seemed like we were getting better at being together,...

writing for boyfriend's company, had to revise an assignment after a long day grooming dogs. last minute problems with formatting in microsoft word, which is always a bitch. call and call and call...

my standards are really high when it comes to dogs. well when it comes to lots of things. and when it comes to how to treat your employees.i'm pretty irritated that i am supposed to do things this...

i had my first day at my new job today. i had some secret issues with the whole thing, but i am determined to remain positive. basically, the woman grooms dogs' heads in a way that is different from...

i just have to remain positive and believe, believe, believe in myself.i am loving the seasons.

is setting in...just a little. ok maybe a lot. i signed a year lease, which can be broken at the cost of one month's rent. the place where i am going to be working is not run the way the woman who...

"i'm sorry that you are feeling so upset. i care about you very much, but when you get into these states your behavior hurts me and i don't want to be around it. i am going to take some space, and...

I had a dream about my boyfriend this morning. He was wandering around from city to city with this kid in tow. The kid, from what I can recall, was a young boy, maybe around 10 or so. Most of the...

holding deposit deposited.thinning of stuff commencing...couch surfing to save money about to begin.i cried so much when i got approved for this place. they called me back so quickly. i was afraid i...

Suddenly I am typing with excellent punctuation because I am journaling on Word, to be uploaded when my internet connection reestablishes itself… so much for my unique and lazy style.So about this...

a thousand miles away... and he's doing the no contact thing. spontaneously. he was texting me sunday, and told me to call him that night. well all this is hard for me, and i'm trying to get over...

she even said she wished i was coming up sooner and would buy me a plane ticket to move up if only i didn't have all my stuff to bring. saving money... biding time... almost there.