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- I still find it hard to like myself. reading Self Compassion helps me at least to tell the scared little girl inside that I will take care of her. that I wont leave her and will protect her feelings. always feel like a fake, tolerated not liked, and...
- modem was shot and no internet for 1 week. missed the interaction. hope to get back into discussions.
- we are leaving for Chicago today for my son's visit in am. asking that you all pray for us that he does not need another open heart surgery. would be the 4th!!!. I am allowing his dad ( my ex) to ride with us. of course he has no license. we have...
- I became a nurse in 1979. full of expectation's of saving the world and being Florence nightingale. haha funny now. love being a nurse for any years and was compassionate and of course this fit into my view of the world as a young code. forward to...
- my niece and my brother are messes. I realize that there resentment has resulted from this family problem. we have all been affected either as the addict, the code, and the denial of feelings.it goes way back. as a child bringing up the death of my...
- went to sisters wedding party and could not wait to leave. but have been obsessing about how much she pisses me off. got to stay away and get focused on me . would have few years ago loved this type of gathering but now annoyed and don't feel a...
- I don't really have a close relationship with my daughter but sense she had kids I have visited with and been a part of the kids lives. have to drive 200 miles to her house. around and with a lot of pre-planning around my work schedule. have been...
- my ex that moved out a year ago had a major surgery in april and has been sick since. he almost died last spring and made it to a life of a colostomy and not eating and very depressed. his daughter told me tonight that he was in bad shape because he...
- does anyone else feel lonely but dread being with others? i force myself to make plans and make a good effort to enjoy it but glad when its over!!! this might be a trust issue or and born of fear of rejection. afraid to put to much excitement into a...
- my sister died a year ago today. made plans with other sister but cancelled cause I knew that it would be her drunk and crying. they plan her friends thing on the day I work of course. just very annoyed with her. she is just a thorn in my side and I...
- I do drink to tolerate the boredom and frustration and its a habit that I have done for years. and yes probably an alcoholic. alcohol has been a part of my life since childhood. good and bad times it was always a part of the mix. food for thought...
- I realize that I have a problem with drinking and have for along time. I minimize it ( I think) by comparing myself to many others that drink a lot more than me and by the fact that I drink 4-5 beers each evening after work. as soon as I take a...
- if you are on this site you understand addiction as code is also an addiction. yes getting to the point of not drinking is what I need to do and surrender to my higher power. it helps so much to post here and hear these things that I need to hear...
- DEPRESSED AND FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF. TIRED OF MY LIFE OF WORKING AND COMING HOME AND DRINKING AND FEELING HUNG OVER. TIRED OF BEING ALONE AND DEPRESSED. TIRED OF DRINKING BUT CANT STOP. TIRED OF THE BILLS WITH THIS HOUSE AND WORKING SO MUCH TO...
- have not posted for awhile been busy over the summer having fun and I am ok when I am out of this house with those that I love but still depressed when I come home alone and want a partner. old questions come up- why am I always the 3rd wheel? why...