sassybabe11
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- so last night i said all that i thought. his repsonses were all excuses for his laziness. i am just 2 impatient and things dont get done when i think they should. oh yeah, his procrastation is just overwhelmingi have been treated better by him all...
- anyone have social anxiety? i sure do i work through it but still there. also have alot of anxiety about being around my screwed up sisters. so am not very often. i dont feel like i can stop by there and feel welcomed unless the one that is not sick...
- why cant i start over and get away from this lazy ass that i live with? everyday is another day that is the first day of the rest of my life and i do that same miserable things over and over. live with a lazy ass drunk that repeats himself over and...
- been to oklahoma to visit son and fam, chicago for my sons yearly visit with cardiology and a float trip. been away from family drama and felt better till tonight. now feeling worried about being excluded from family that i have not been around and...
- i want to stop smoking. i only smoke when i drink but do have 3-4 beers each night. so i smoke then. each morning i wake i say going to stop today but then just light up again in the evening. my sister has lung cancer and my kids dont even want...
- the drama continues. have got to seperate myself from family and SO. i am just so unhappy with everything in my life. try to count my blessings and stay centered on me but it is so hard with the sick sister and and soon as i come home my SO starts...
- the previous topic about code destroying our lives was so to the point for me after the last few days. i realized that i have in place such rigid boundaries that i feel very little and dont let other in. repeated disappointments and rejections and...
- any advice on how to stop obscessing about a situation that i have no control over? i wake up every morning with negative thoughts in my head about what my family thinks of me concerning my sick sister and what they obviously think that i should be...
- how come i cant change my pic? says there was a problem with uploading? any advice?
- resentment is really taking a tow on me. i have really been overwhelmed with it lately and have decided to do something abou it. as you all know my sister is terminal and have been sorta sitting around and waiting for them to call me concerning...
- when someone uses things that they do for you as a device to bring up later to induce guilt or show that they do so much for someone that they feel does not return its blackmail. my SO talks about all he does for others and how he does not get back...
- Lisa my sister with cancer started chemo today. She is not doing good. My other sister and I discussed her funeral and how to pay for it about 1 month ago and she brought it up today and said that cremation is much less expensive but not sure what...
- woke up this am with the same usual negative thoughts running through my mind. i have been slipping on doing this but started again. layed on the nice cool sheets and listened to the birds outside. prayed for guidance from the Lord for today. to...
- wow what i am doing to take care of me. all know of my family situation with sister. the at least healthy phyically (doubts concerning mentally) sister was drunk again and again and hanging on me and holding my hand and asking me to please stay...
- listened to an ipod lecture about anger today and it is a reaction to not feeling appreciated or vindicated or important. it is a survival feeling that is meant to protect us but then we cant let it fo when we should. can ignore or deny it and stuff...