bluedragon41
Status: intensive outpatient; slow improvement.
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- This is something I said to someone who asked me the question:"Is loving oneself and spoiling oneself synonymous?"I replied thusly:"Loving oneself in action is doing what one needs to do to be happy. This is not only difficult but takes...
- My therapist talked to one of her colleagues who's more experienced with DID...and it seems we're DID-NOS.Heh! The kids all feel very vindicated. :p
- When I wanted to die very much...I stayed alive because I had people who loved me and needed me.I deliberately sought people out to need me. After all, I have no transcendent purpose to believe in. I'm still here because other people needed me to...
- http://www.slate.com/articles/life/family/2013/02/abusive_parents_what_do_grown_children_owe_the_mothers_and_fathers_who_made.htmlFrom the article:"Loved ones and friendssometimes even therapistswho urge reconnecting with a parent often speak as if...
- If I avoid people, I will become painfully insane.If I let myself love people, those people will hurt me.
- To make a long story short, she pressured me into sex I really didn't want....She apologized the next day, and I'd actually blanked out the whole thing. When she apologized I said "I'm not used to the idea that what I want means anything."We had...
- I broke it off rather quickly with a couple who wanted me to be the "junior slave," and I was not into that.Into both of them, but not able to fit into their pre-existing relationship with each other, because it was a M/s relationship, and I'm not...
- Okay...I have a friend I've been corresponding with since 2010 or so, she's a survivor...and over time I got to meet at least three of her alters....And I will preface this by saying I have flat-out told her she needs better help than myself, many...
- ...I have discovered that I do like to be tied, whipped, choked and ravished...But called the whole thing off when I was informed I would be expected to cook breakfast!O.o...I'm kinky, yeah, but some things are just a step too far!
- I'm terrified of my sweet little inoffensive girlfriend....She's really fallen for me, so if I walk away I hurt her.If I continue on she's going to destroy me just like my ex-wife did.I can't leave her without guilt, I can't stay with her without...
- I told my GF I loved her. Totally on accident.It's true, yeah.I never intended to hurt my ex, she never intended to hurt me...and we've destroyed each other.I was too weak and too needy and too sexual.I never want to love! It just happens! And the...
- My marriage was totally doomed!http://www.businessinsider.com/formula-predicts-success-of-marriages-2012-12"Many have spent long hours wondering if a marriage is going to last, considering things like love, children, taxes, and the opinion of...
- (I meant to post it here, put it over in sexual abuse instead...sowwee)My mom was not sexually abusive.She left me alone with my dad to go to work every night...and I was screaming in terror as she was walking out the door for 2 weeks straight. She...
- My mom was not sexually abusive.She left me alone with my dad to go to work every night...and I was screaming in terror as she was walking out the door for 2 weeks straight. She finally told me I could not keep doing that, that it would make her...
- I had a memory recovery recently, and I get the feeling that Shawn, my protector, USED that memory in a coldblooded way to test my new GF and see how she reacted when we were in pain.*glares a little at Shawn*(WHAT? I was doing my job! You rely on...