bluedragon41
Status: intensive outpatient; slow improvement.
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- I went into the hospital. My meds were changed.I got out, feeling a bit better. Then the election happened. I'm ideating again. But I have been for a long time. Maybe I will make it through college, or maybe I won't.I don't have a country...
- Uhh...I have a BDSM submissive. He's an experienced pervert, helping a n00b learn the ropes and other things....with emotionally abusive relationships #1, 2, and 3 in my rearview mirror?Having clear precise communication is really good!I have been...
- Is a trigger for me...and I want to get away from that person. I ended up hitting myself last night because I hurt someone's feelings on accident.I had a friend...he told me I kept hurting his feelings...well, twice...but since it was several...
- My ex-guy was a great deal of why I was able to open up? I trusted him. Then he turned on me.He felt he'd worked enough, he was entitled to all he wanted now. I was unfairly withholding things he deserved....The fact that he seriously messed up...
- I am lying around on my spoiled, lazy ass feeling sorry for myself because my crazy ex-fiance turned on me like everyone else I've ever loved.I don't deserve the right to whine about it because I did this to myself. People turn on me and hurt me. ...
- That I would make a rather sucky ber driver....Why? I saw a snapping turtle get clipped by a car and rescued it. I have hyposmia right now and I could smell how awful frightened and injured snapping turtle smells.Its' shell injury is rather bad,...
- So...someone talked me into telling myself I was awesome in the mirror...uh...My alters kind of flipped out, one came out on top of me, had to be calmed down...It felt like all of the me's were trying to pull apart but since we're all me-parts we...
- Pardon...I was going to print out a temporary insurance card at my mom's house. I was trying to plug the USB cable into her laptop. The printer was on the floor, I was on my hands and knees looking for the port.Mom came up behind me and touched me...
- ...I realized WHY I don't want people to tell me I am worth something, or that I don't deserve the hate I am slinging at myself, the self-contempt I feel...Intellectually I can sort of see they are right, even? But I get why I need to dislike...
- ...My guy and I broke up.He dumped me, is now saying I dumped him. I realize he can't accept that he's been emotionally abusive.I love him, but I don't deserve to be abused...even if I am very difficult to deal with, probably need to look and think...
- ...NOMNOMNOMNOM...Admittedly I practically rattle when I walk, but my depression's way better. I'm having fun. STILL need to go job hunting, but I can do that.
- Kids, our word for today is "Glurge"Apparently Snopes board came up with this lovely word a while ago:"In ordinary language, glurge is the sending of inspirational (and supposedly "true") tales, ones that often conceal much darker meanings than the...
- Bills coming in, no job, having to take handouts from the bank of mom...I ended up in the psych ER once already because I could not promise my friend that I would not eat a bunch of pills that night.(they let me right back out. As an online friend...
- I'm coughing up green, thick, cruddy stuff. JUST what I needed...NOT! I need to go get a job, not sit around being sick.I have over a week's worth of antibiotics that might put a dent in the lung crud, will take until I am out.Right now? Going to...
- ...Without giving you the blow-by-blow...I told Mr Crazypants I was angry at him for threatening suicide this time.He's done it many times before, so it's not like this is the first time, right? It hurt me every time? So I said so and said I was...