bluedragon41
Status: intensive outpatient; slow improvement.
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- I wrote this in 2012, as part of getting over my ex-wife.(Really helped me to sob my damn eyes out...)"Shine"We are such fragile thingsButterflies that dance for a seasonOn swiftly-fading wings,Bright fleeting flowers that bloom in the spring,Leaves...
- That four letter word...I am going to a job fair on Thursday, trying to get a job that will actually pay my bills.I like my guard job. I've been guarding stuff for money since 1998, in fact.But the wages are low, low, low. I'm a warm body in a...
- Had I not come this way, I would not have met you-all.And my life would have been the lesser for it.
- I'm just tired of being so...easily knocked down. It's so hard to get back up again, re-collect myself, and slooooowly start moving forward again...I get depressed and discouraged very easily, and then it's hard to make myself do anything. It's...
- I saw this on a website and am going to try it.I'm going to start having a meeting with all my interior people. Probably right before we go to sleep, just a daily check with them to see what they are thinking and feeling and such.It's a scary and...
- http://outofthefog.net/CommonBehaviors/Hoovering.html"Hoovering is one of the key components of an Abusive Cycle. It is the tactic which ensures many abusers do not have to live alone. It can also act as the plus side when the victim calculates the...
- I'm trying to find a new home for the dogs that I took in because they were dumped, I'm not really able to take good care of them-just feed and vet care-but I'm too exhausted all the time to do much more....I am going to look into some cheap life...
- I'm trying to find a new home for the dogs that I took in because they were dumped, I'm not really able to take good care of them-just feed and vet care-but I'm too exhausted all the time to do much more....I am going to look into some cheap life...
- I am thankful that-I have people who really don't want me to do myself in-I have a car that will actually get me all the way to work without breaking down and do so reliably.-I made it to work early today,-with a shirt that isn't atrociously...
- ...Apparently I really do need Abilify...I ran out, was ok for 3 days...then today I started thinking about the future.Yanno what? I can't allow myself to think about the future too much. It goes straight from "how am I going to pay my bills," to...
- This is what I am trying...I initially said it was for a month, but it works so well I will keep doing it, I think.It's simple: write down 3 things that went well, and why they went well.It takes about 10 mins or less...and it's really helping to...
- ...I don't really know who I am anymore, since a lot that I thought was me turns out to be alters, and "I" act more as a conduit than anything else....I have no faith in my own ability to actually be seeing reality, as it's become apparent to me how...
- ...This time I was doing a "head check," because we're reacting pretty hard to some interpersonal drama with my one drama-producing significant other... As opposed to the *other* significant other, who is a little neurotic, but otherwise pretty...
- ...It seems a lot of the "mental fizzing,"or "internal static," or "brain noise" that I have experienced all my life? that this is the work of at least one persecutor alter.The one I'm currently talking to is named "Miss Perfect."Apparently she...
- ...I was given a book about positive psychology, and I'm totally geeked.So. In my family, what I did right was never appreciated. I was ignored if I did something right, hit/screamed at/emotionally abused for imperfections.So I was trained to look...