so lost

i get lost in the moment - I get lost from interactions wtih strangers -


it then affects my interactions with my family -


and those around me - at least it may from my vantage


and I may sense that it is something big compared to how my demeanor/conversation may be


received.


I am grateful to be in a monastery - where I can truly think about god - and his ideas of me


and the work I have to do here. Why I think I constantly have to change myself is beyond me -


but I guess I gotta just pray and deal. Therapy tonight after evening meal. Whoopee!

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malibumark
malibumark

maybe I'll start thinking that we all gotta deal with the ever changes within us much like we all gotta scramble
and take care of ourselves with work and keep up -. It's not fun - it's not easy - so I guess I won't expect it
to be - or be thrown off course when it happens (being thrown off course)
in the event I sense that I am different - and start staring obsessively
at difference as the easiest way to self define - a closed door might distract me from the open one - I hope that doesn't happen.
Ladybug7
Ladybug7

We're all growing and changing, but honestly...you're great just as you are! Hope therapy goes well. Hugs.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks judy. i appreciate you so much! thanks for giving me a boost when I really needed it!
(((hug)))
lilmissy7
lilmissy7

Big hugs Marcos <3 <3 <3
gr8ful1
gr8ful1

I am so glad that you practice gratitude in some form in your posts. It;s inspirational. I hope all goes well with therapy tonight!
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks lilmissy and Susan!! xo
arfie
arfie

i got a giggle out of reading your afterthought, markus. you took the words right out of my fingertips. it is a biological fact that every life form is constantly changing, one molecule at a time. alas, obsessing about it doesn't help because the changes are to slow to perceive with our big cumbersome cranium. still, i like to keep up as much as possible.

fun? ? ? some changes are funner than others. fun or knot, the beat goes on. . .
keep on rolling with the flow.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

Resilience, Marky! Resilience!
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Arfie! Thanks Nikki!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Pray and deal....A perfect way of putting it Marky

I feel like this a lot
Big hug sweetie...xo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Jan!