moods change

I had a tumultuous day yesterday from my condition. Sleep helped. I wrote this to my (family member) because I relied on him. I wanted to share.

Hi (family member), about yesterday. I lost sight of being self responsible. I apologize, I went real deep.
I suffered last night and thought of checking into a hospital. But I took my meds and went to sleep. A night’s rest helped. I woke and came down to set up chapel. I was still spinning about life and bad moods and trying to cope with my discomfort and reaction to it. I finally thought of generally what everyone must experience in their feelings, not always sunny but sometimes positive sometimes not. Like when you talked about when hope returns ‘it’s a glorious day.’
I thought about my instinct to sort through my feelings and create wisdom, I think instead of going down my navel, I think I am going to play with my art supplies to satisfy my expression need over my feelings. It would be constructive and productive. I am also realizing that there’s just a limit to what each of us can see and appreciate as individuals and humans. I want to thank you for always being available. Your intellect is amazing. It’s a mind bank. I love you. Have a good day and Happy Valentine’s Day!