Can’t relax
I was going about the work here today down at church. Come down while it's still dark outside and set up the church with candles and charcoal. I was seeing this and saying to myself it's just 'day in and day out'. How each one of us with our daily chores at the monastery keep this place running and it was a new consoling, affirming perspective for me.
I let go and did my work and then the auditory hallucinations started. It made me feel so sick. I can't relax, I have to miserly deal with my feelings or else I am under attack and even then I'm not safe. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
i am grateful to have my place in the world. I will do my work and take care of life here and my life in general.
I'll be there for you guys.
have a good day!
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Mark, I hope any anxiousness you may feel in your surroundings is calmed by your capacity to care for others. Enjoy your Saturday and make some time when you can for a painting!
Have you talked to your pdoc about the hallucinations? They must be very disconcerting. Take care and I'm glad you have a routine. That is good for us.
Thanks Nikki and Becky!!
Sorry to read that you are feeling poorly....don't want to over step boundaries, just wondering when your last med tweak was....hope that your routine will get you back into the flow of Peace and Healing <3 Hugs
Thanks Mary Louise. Maybe I will take a 5 mg prn of Olanzapine tonight. Things have been nutty today.