malibumark

I started to go south after sitting in the terminal so long. I took a med then I took a walk and said hi to a shopkeeper. It’s so good just to talk to folks and know you’re not alone.I feel...

Hey guys, I know now we all have ways of managing our feelings and emotions.Call it different self made systems or just ways. The mix of it all makes me so appreciate what's in my life. I've awakened...

I don't know if it's leading to be more responsible or less of a dreamer or maybe just more temperate way of dealing with myself and my feelings. I'm grateful for the time off I have right now. I'm...

I bet so much of our lives can be summed up in the patterns or algorithms.We're each looking at things and making sense, evaluating, through patterns within our selves and outside us too. Patterns...

My day yesterday was upsetting but it made me face this morning with the question of what I can do and what I can'tand what I will do and what I won't. Am I asking too much of myself I posited? In...

I had a good therapy session today.I opened up with my therapist and realized bothhis fallibility and mine. I saw he was just asking targeted questionsto see what kind of response he would get. He...

Felt a lot of pain this morning after a family meeting. I am such a black sheep.  But I have to accept it. I still must bolster a sense of essential value within myself and love the people next to...

I'm realizing for myself that I have struggled with having personal feelingsand then sought out social structures when I sense fear, a breach or an upset.I don't know if this makes sense but I am not...

maybe we each have a form of that here. Yes I have a mood disorder, yes most of the timesI don't know what my feelings mean and they overwhelm me by fueling my thoughtsinto an unuseful, unsociable...

things are going well here. Starting to realize some folks interpret things more in terms of the aesthetic or the way of things and some focus more on the relationships at hand. It’s like that old...

I don't why, but I have so felt the need, the compulsion to justify myself and my life.It's made for some very dark and very wasted time in my life when I could have beenadventuring, creating and...

I'm in my cell now. With Blue. Radio on. Candle lit. Electric potbelly stove flickering and crackling away. I feel the pressure to know who I am, and I wonder the pressure we put on ourselves if the...

I’m having a manic episode today but it’s in check. Super amounts of enthusiasm and energy and feeling high flying in mood and reactive but fortunately I know how to keep a perspective on it....