malibumark

i'm learning more and more thatI can't explain or understand everything about myself and there are in fact some things that I am powerless to change.I found in church while serving that my body rules...

Bouncing off an idea I just heard, I think creativity is fueled by a restlessness innate to creative people to deal with and puzzle over an idea and manifest it. It's an itch that needs to be...

I’ve not been so good since the end of yesterday. Feeling kind of eclipsing feelings and drive in me that I need be responsible about. Talking about them here gives some order to them. I wish I...

From my Dad as we were texting last night:We all have an idealized desire but in the meantime you cannot miss the positives in your life and focus on what you have now the future will come on its own...

I’m finding it very hard to be an island today, but I know we all gotta deal with that sometimes.The ‘company culture’ here is getting to me. I need pleasures and agency and that’s all...

I was liberated by thoughts which were inspired today. I calledmy father, while I was in distress but I was owningmy emotional state. I talked to Dad and he seemedstruggling with getting on with...

I want to work, I want to earn money.Part of the enthusiasm that I am pumping myself upwith now as I search is making me aware that I'm sort ofseeking out and serving after someone else's rulesas a...

It kind of struck me this morning, that in life everyone needs to create community for themselves in life. A way people create community for themselves is people get married. You create a nuclear...

My parents and family have played a very powerful role in my life. I'm very connected with them. That connection has my mindset childishly submissive in outlook because my illness has made me need to...

This journal is for me. I love design and I found that I like experimental, playful designbut also like the charm and strength of establishment design too. I try and mix the two.Somewhat playful...

It’s curious guys, the more ill I got and the less I began to date, and then retreat, the more I struggled with illness, the more I started to live in my own aesthetic of design choices and life...

I know we all have appetites for getting what we want. Right now I am struggling with mine. I also know rationally that I have to run this "business" or "Company."So I just have to keep pretty clear...