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I wrote this to someone very close to me.Hi again, I’m drawn to tell you because you and everyone are important to me as a source of setting the tone of my life. This is what I wrote before we...

I really came to a place of understanding what I put my father throughand what I put others through - like the Elder - and now understandingthe reactions and behaviors -all sides of it -  the elder...

I am going to startfocusing on the good and less on the toxic. I'll be positive I have to admit though I have a lot of rage in me right now.I can't help it - when I start to relax - I remember I...

It's wild, but I'm realizing that much of the time when I come home alone to my room (after spending time with blue that is), I tend to ruminate or focus on the most recent irritant to my security...

arfie's last comment came at a really good time.i've been on the arc of accepting 'in the moment' what is real or reasonable and what is not.i am home now from my trip - and I find myself feeling the...

I’m not so good at being alone, in some ways I am but in some ways I’m not and I react to that. I’ve learned that not everyone wants or can have the same kinds of relationships. The prayers in...

went to service just now and it was a rough transition. My head felt like cement. I tried to lift my sights taking a little energy giving a little energy within and around me to sustain holding my...

I think we adopt standards to reassure us So that we don’t feel like an alien  I need to make a life for myself that is satisfying. I don’t know why I have such yearning in me. But I’ll have...

So much of the time for me now is spent worrying if I am ok, if it is ok to be me or to follow my desires. When I got very sick it manifested in my person making me unacceptable to my family. Now I...

It's the weirdest thing. Sometimes if I have sort of sorted things out for myself, and feel happy with my resolution there is something in me that sometimes just still wants more. I know we're human...

I wrote this to my friend Father Or at his monastery in Norway.“I hope someday many young families come and spend Easter Weekend with you. This weekend was so gratifying and fun to host a community...

I need to wake up in a place where I am free to breath in the sweet morning air and feel the cool dew and sunshine on my body. Free of pressure to conform to a religious ceremony or any seriousness...

Happy Easter you guys! I'm thinking about my mom and grandparents who are in heaven. Last night was a beautiful Easter service.It's storming now here in Oklahoma. So grateful we still have...