time
i know the answer to this doesn't have to be entirely one thing
or another - I don't know why I have to talk about this - but I am compelled to.
last night I felt so energized, optimistic and capable to 'take on' projects to occupy me
while i stayed in my room, preparing for the procedure on Thursday.
I did some cleaning - but I just kind of thought an amazing life goal
would be wonderful to have - a real kind of entrepreneurial triumph,
I thought I had it within me.
but then taking the first step in any direction was unknown.
I went to sleep - and woke this morning
and thought about the contemplative life I have - it gives me time to think
about things, time to love Blue and my family and friends and community and I am very comfortable,
but would the pursuit of another monastery be simply another
place where I could live in assistance of the whole - and have time to
just parse my experience like i do?
Am I meant for something more - and is that a more acceptable life
for me to have?
I know both lives can involve a measure of each thing - I am just questioning
while I prep for this thing.
this is something i have to answer for myself
but again - i can go all draconian on myself
i am not just worried about living in a different monastery - but any choice would involve some
stabilization time - some time hopefully I would have - i guess that's the real luxury that I want...
time....wherever I go.
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Are you back from NY? How was your trip? Did you get to sight see at all? I pray you can decide what to do and where you are meant to be. I pray God will give you peace with your decision.
Thanks Becky! I’ll pray for you as well!
Thanks Mark!