malibumark

 I wrote this earlier but for some reason it stayed only in draft form. I decided to repost it.I seriously need to make a decision about where to go to. I need another part time job as well maybe. I...

we had a major service this morning and now we all have downtime until services tonight. It's really amazing how my mind unwinds when I don't have a focusing thing. But this has happened plenty of...

I don't know why I do this, but I've seen the habit in my mental health care professionals as well. When I can't reach someone emotionally or understand them I tend to obsess until I find a sense of...

Happy Good Friday!

I sent this to my godson and I am putting it here as I've resolved the theme more distinctly. Where we all have feelings and passions it's a lesson that I've learned to handle them responsibly.I’m...

There's not much going on here at the monastery in Oklahoma, aside from meals time twice a day and service le 2-3 times a day. I'm trying to get some rest in my room. My anxiety started to amp up,...

I am feeling better. There was a great darkness which descended on me this morning while in services. It really troubled me. But I thought about finally making a commitment in life and maybe this is...

Sending a shout out!Here's to us getting our work done!

I talked to my Dad last night. He seems to want emotional closeness but then is very much of the perspective that 'I am on my own' with this decision. He says you can do anything I want and when he...

The 'instant' transfer to Oklahoma really is a lot to deal with for me. It might cause me to sever ties with the community. It all feels like I have to reinvent my life once again (it’s putting...

It's weird sometimes I picture the kind of life I'd like to have. Realistically with the few pleasures and treasures I can afford, I still wax romantic about building a life that is somehow...

I hope you guys can schedule in some pure fun for yourselves sometime soon.Things are good here. Just mindfully aware of my responsibilities and thinking it's also real important to make time for...

I've been sent to Oklahoma to serve as priest for a while. Not my choice.I'm giving it a week, Holy Week. I'm coming to another understanding today though. I've been mentally going back and forth...