popping my head above the fold

i don't know why, but i so repress myself sometimes and feel like

asserting my personal desires is a too bold of a thing to be acceptable.

I am trying to get away from that... Somehow maybe I am too controlled by

what other people think and maybe it's also a misconception that I have..

We don't live in a "perfect" world where other people are all exceptionally humble

and "appropriate" - but it's weird, when I think of stepping out or popping my head above the fold

I feel like I am mighty cuckoo, how can I be better at something if I don't give it a try in the first place.

Work at the market gives me a structure - but personal desires, designs and efforts outside of work

should be given as much if not more attention imho. It makes me feel crazy but I think I have got to make a start of it.

So I might feel detached and perhaps then in a kind of danger but maybe I'll let go of that dangerous feeling.

What's the worst that could happen? :)