chipping away....knocking at the door

i feel pretty good about things. I try and keep busy with my day and after struggling so much 

to find a sense of peace, I am realizing that just keeping busy, knocking at the door or chipping away

at a certain direction is ultimately going to lead me in a certain direction. I don't what that direction will

be - but I get the sense and from the stability that this acceptance has brought, that none of us know where

our actions will lead ultimately. I think we can hope... I hope that I will find my ultimate activity fulfilling and fruitful.

In a sense though it's in a way a tempest in a tea pot... I really wish I were one of those people who could strategize

like a chess player the moves they will make in life - but I think that probably most people are flexible and pivot

with what occurrs to them when opportunity and change comes their way.  I have had many distractors and handicaps but

I feel alright this afternoon about just keeping busy...chipping away or ...knocking at the door. I feel blessed and grateful right now.