hi guys

I am home from work, had some lunch and now have the radio on

and am sitting at my laptop. I don't know what to write. I keep starting

then stopping - changing my thoughts on which ones to focus. I am kind of cray cray - I have my thoughts

about what would be of interest to me but I sense my new buddhism prayer classes are teaching me mindfulness

about what I am actually experiencing and focusing on. It's actually quite good and healthful and helpful.

Whereas once I might have been a little unconscious about things now there seems to be light and space for me

to actually see what I am doing. Maybe now I can do more of what I want to do rather than just follow the amorphous energies that seem to take over when I spend time outside of the structure of work, at home alone.

Buddhism is really interesting. I've gone to a handful of classes now and I like what they teach as well I like how

I feel so happy after I meditate.

I know we are all going through stuff. I hope you guys are fighting good tools and helpful experiences to lighten your load and to find happiness.