some mornings
I went to sleep last night after watching "Antiques Roadshow." I had wanted to stay up for the "Dr. Blake's Mysteries" but I couldn't muster it. My schedule makes me nod off pretty early. Anyways, so it goes. I woke up this morning to some 'bitey thoughts' - but it didn't get the better of me as it might...but it's weird how the morning can present itself in a way that makes you feel down. I actually love my time off from work but mornings where it's unstructured or where I don't really have something planned catch me into a depression kind of. But catching this before it becomes bigger is the ray of sunshine here. I am drinking a big pot of coffee right now and washed up and watched CBS "Sunday Morning" and then I'll go to my parents' house later today for the Super Bowl! Woot woot!! My Buddhism classes are teaching me to adjust mentally when something bothers me. So this morning I am not just reacting to my feelings I am appreciating what I can change. I hope you guys have a good Sunday!!
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"Reaction" vs "Action" has been one of the recurring themes in my own psychotherapy. I started out reacting so wildly, that I seldom took intelligent action. Learning to honor my reactions and then set them aside until I arrived at an intelligent action might be the most important psychotherapy tool I've picked up over my decades of therapy. I remain amazed at how often the most intelligent action is to nothing, whatsoever.
Don't know if this is the same thing as adjusting mentally when something bothers me, but. . .
Hope the Good Guys win the Super Bowl. Enjoy.
thanks arfie!!
I think it's the same!!
I am seeing my role is to breach the common experience and make it
into form - an expression form - I know that what my buddhist class teaches
me is that my feelings are to be thought about but not a victim of - thoughts, feelings, actions
I know when I am not busy with work and have free time - I like to fill that time
as well - and need to too - keeping busy helps me avoid burying myself in sadness and yet I realize that sadness should not stop the train - keep moving forward even though - mild sadness may be just that :)
I don't know why I feel the need to distill things yet it's what it is -
I don't know why a bird needs to sing, but I am glad they do.
Keep distilling, my distillatious friend. Why ask why.
arfie!!!xxx
Catching your depression before it becomes too big to handle is a good thing. I'm glad you are able to do that. It's important in our recovery that we can recognize when symptoms of our illness come up so we can head them off.
thanks becky!!