Checking in

I've spent the whole day alone except for going to Starbucks three times. I'm laying in bed right now trying to sleep and I realized a few things. I get very lost in thought. I can have extreme insight and then not be able to see the forest for the trees. I was trying to sleep and I felt unable to sleep and I realized I was depressed at having to deal with dysfunction with in myself. I wasn't looking forward to tomorrow I wasn't looking forward to going to bed I just felt empty and depressed. With no clue about what it meant. I just felt it. But I remembered the idea of owning it, being self responsible, But also coming to the idea of why I was feeling so down and empty. So that being said now that I know why I was feeling so disorganized and just kind of messed up, being able to sort it out or express it makes me feel like I can get back on the horse again. So I will! I wish I didn't have this confusion in me, But I do. So wishing you guys a good night and an easy day tomorrow with your challenges, I wish that for all of us. Stay safe out there!