I need it all
I have thought about going to the monastery tonight and the comfort it gives of living in a community
with a common purpose is definitely something that I like very much. IKnowing people are there
and expecting me to be there.
I've tried to interpret my mental spinnings and have realized much of it is about the affirmations
that I seek and so I suddenly realized why I like when I put my head down to sleep there
it feels good and it's calming.
I am realizing though as I try and fall asleep here and now, that I need to take care of myself - at home now on my own as well. I did the things I usually do that help me fall asleep - and these thoughts just came to mind as my spinning and 'harmony with body and mind' were not there.
My relationship with my body and mind and my goals and my chores and my physicality
as well are all things I need to manage.
I am learning that as shattered as and piecemealing of all these observations together
I'm realizing with all honesty that I kind of need it all. I need the whole human experience to
live healthfully and managing.
I need to talk to Aemiliane about how she takes care of herself - does she feel that god provides
all? or does she find time to nourish and care for herself to keep at the work and routine
of a Mother Superior?
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i don't know about Aemiliane, but i believe god provides, but leaves it to me to provide the legwork on the treasure hunt.
i tell him what i want and he gives me what i need to get what i want.
geez. . . ain't you never heard of amazon? where's my pretty package and instant gratification?
Haha you made me laugh out loud!
I remember Kathy Lee talked about saying her prayers with her daughter and she asked her daughter where all the good things in life on the good earth come from? And her daughter said “a store!!”