loum50
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- I need to vent and rant.* May trigger *I'm sick of the amputations. I'm sick of loosing my wife. I'm sick of having been sexually abused. I'm sick of the effects it has had on my whole life. I'm feeling so angry. Wow it's really coming out. I hate...
- I just remembered a third abuser. This one orally raped me. The memory is real. I hate getting new memories. So far I'm OK, but I don't think it has hit me totally yet. Each time I remember something the memory is worse. This is the first one I...
- Is there any way I could be imagining all this, that my parents were the loving parents that I want and believe them to be and that I'm the one who is crazy? Everything I read and remember just provides more proof that my parents were abusive and...
- Is it possible to have an alter that dreams for you? I very seldom dream or at least remember dreaming. Last night was the trird time I remember dreaming this year, which is more than most years, In the dream I was lying on a streacher sobbing...
- I do not want to sound critical or judgemental of anyone. That's not what this is about. Lately I have not felt safe sharing here. I could go on, but that's all I need to say about that. What I really want to talk about is spirituality. To me that...
- Last night I was really p----d off that I'm an incest survivor. I don't know when it started but it was when I was young. It seems like all my life I've awakened between 2 and 3 in the morning usually screaming, in terror or a flashback, sometimes...
- Has any one heard of internal family systems therapy? My new therapist is using that among other therapies. It is supposed to be effective for self injury, incest survivors and dissociative disorders. It makes a lot of sense to me.
- I must be getting better I'm loaded with feelings.My wife - I miss her. I feel so lonely without her. I loved her. It's hard to type when you're crying. I'm angry that I will be without her for the rest of my life. Life isn't fair. I can't stop...
- I'm under a lot of stress at work and I see a new therapist tomorrow. At home I seem to be dissociating a lot. I keep getting my pills wrong. I have them all set up ahead of time. Sometimes I take the night pills in the morning some times I don't...
- I need to change therapists. My current one, I like, but she doesn't have the knowledge or the experience to work with incest survivors with dissociative dissorder. I found one that is wheelchair accessible, specializes in incest survivors and has...
- I'm not sure how to put this into words.The little child within me loved his parents and didn't know anything else, so he trusted them implicitly. He was so hurt by his father and not protected by his mother and is so confused at how someone he...
- I just finished working 7 days straight. I have an appointment to be evaluated for psyc medication on Wednesday. I'm going too take tomorrow off and spend the day browsing a bookstore. When I was a child I used to take a bus to the city and go to...
- Tonight was the most honest and intense therapy session I ever had. We talked about how my mother wanted a girl and my father wanted a boy and I don't think either got what they wanted. Talked about my substance abuse and my suicide attempts. Also...
- I am trying to stop all my addictions. I was abused from a very young age and I need to be honest about what I did to survive. I need and want to stop all my addictions. My first addiction was food. Most people scoff at food being an addiction. For...
- I really don't want to upset or trigger anyone. Right now I'm very depressed and know I need antidepressants. I would like to know if anyone here has ever really felt good without the use of some chemical or addiction. Maybe it's the depression...