loum50
Status: Spring is here.
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- The shopping fairy was at it again last night. I went in to Walmart to buy my grandaughter a phone card and came home with a new T-shirt, turtleneck and a sweater. Every so often I have to go through my clothes and give some away. It's getting that...
- Today would have been my father's 111th birthday today. It's been a tough day and I wish I could drink. I will not be able to go to my face to face support group tomorrow because my ride can't take me and I feel like hurting myself.
- I'm somewhat depressed, but somewhat energized and very irritable. I take 100 mg of Lamictal, Prozac, Trazodone, prazosin and xanix when I need it. I see my pdoc Wednesday. I think I need a medication adjustment. Has anyone else felt like this? It...
- One of my little parts wants a train set. To be precise, he wants a Lionel train set. I've tried to talk him into an N gauge train set, but he wants O gauge. I don't really have the room for that size, but he deserves it. I'm trying to figure out...
- Yesterday I felt miserable all day. Then I went shopping and as usual the shopping fairy came out. I had made her a list and she bought everything on the list and then some. I had socks on my list that they have at Wall Mart, they have the diabetic...
- I woke up this morning feeling good. I went shopping last night and I have a part that comes out that loves shopping, I call her the shopping fairy. I had plenty of sleep and was well rested. I had a good and restful day. I helped my grandaughter...
- I go from reeling good to miserable within a few days. Most of the time I'm just moderately depressed, but today I feel like I just want someone to put me out of my misery.
- I'm stuck in a stupid wheelchair and Tuesday it snowed, my boss got mad at me because I couldn't make it in. I worked 10 hours from home but he didn't believe me. I can't take it any more so I ended up slicing my arm up. Maybe I'll get MRSA and end...
- I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2. Normally I'm depressed from moderately to a little more severe. It's been a long time since I was in clinical depression, about 15 years. I started going into an up cycle Thursday and feel really good today. I...
- A lot of incest survivors have trouble with panic attacks while shopping, but I don't have that problem. I have panic attacks about bed. The reason I don't have panic attacks shopping is because the shopping fairy does my shopping. She always buys...
- My therapist confirmed a new diagnosis today, bipolar 2. Now physically I have Type 2 diabetes, coronary artery disease, kidney disease, carpel tunnel and 2 amputations. Emotionally I have PTSD, DID, anxiety disorder and now bipolar type 2.,...
- Yesterday I saw the nurse that prescribes my psyc meds. She is also a therapist. She was telling me the difference between night terrors and nightmares. What I have are night terrors because I thrash around , moan and yell in my sleep and claw...
- Today was a tough day. I couldn't get to work because my daughter in law's car wouldn't start. I can't drive because of the amputations. I lost about 8 hours and didn't take any of my meds. Then, I was on line and saw an earring shaped like a razor...
- I have so many parts with different problems and characteristics that is sometimes confusing where to put things. I hope it is safe here. I've been feeling suicidal and have been self injuring and feeling terrible stress. I told my therapist that I...
- I feel miserable right now, but even though the urges are to self harm I'm trying to do something soothing for myself. I just made myself a cup of chocolate mint coffee and am sitting in front of the fireplace. I'm feeling lonely, a lot of shame...