loum50
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- A few days ago someone posted something in here that triggered a new memory. It's good that I was able to remember but for some reason I'm really struggling with it. It seems so stupid. I remembered my father made me kiss him on the lips. I didn't...
- I used to have nightmares every night and would wake up screaming. After years of therapy and support groups it stopped. I still woke up at that time but the terror was gone. Dealing with some new memories and feelings in therapy, first the fear...
- I'm trying not to hurt myself, but I made the mistake of putting on Christmas songs on the radio and wrapping presents. A song came on that was a real trigger for me. I just wanted to beat my head in till I was unconscious and I didn't care that I...
- I have diabetes and high blood pressure from overeating all my life. Those things have caused me to have 2 amputations and kidney disease. I changed to a vegan diet 4 months ago. It has helped, my diabetes is well under control and my blood pressure...
- I attend an al-anon adult children meeting in my area and it helps a lot.
- I feel OK in the morning but feel depressed at night. Last night was bad. I felt very depressed when I went to bed and this morning I had long claw marks on both arms. I have no memory of doing it. It scares me because of I'm told that once you have...
- Does anyone else get more depressed as night time approaches?
- I'm a diabetic so I get infections easily. I've had 2 amputations due to infections. I keep a close I on any scratches or cuts for infection. In January of 2011 I noticed a scratch on my leg looked like it might be infected my doctor told me to go...
- I'm feeling sad and a little depressed. I visited the cemetary where my wife is burried to see the stone and I'm hurting emotionally and I want to make myself hurt physically. I feel so crazy. I'm trying to notice what triggers me to hurt myself. I...
- Today is going to be hard. Today would have been mine and my wife's 39th wedding anniversary, she passed away in July. I'm having very bad thoughts. I'm going to try to be good to myself and not hurt myself. She would not want me to hurt myself. I...
- One of the ways I self injure is I dissociate and scratch myself with my fingernails. I keep them trimmed but I still leave blody scratches and I don't have any awareness of doing it. I've been hospitalized twice with those scratches becoming...
- I know I dissociate. Someone can be talking to me and I hear them, but their words don't register on my brain. I scratch myself and have no memory of it. Someone will ask me how did you get all those blody scratches and I have no memory. I used to...
- I'm not doing so good today. I went to a support group last night and all that came out of me was pain. I'm feeling really lonely right now and I think I'm greiving my childhood and how all the abuse affected my whole life. I'm having urges to be...
- I'm not having a good day. I think I'm feeling lonely. I went to a support group last night and all that came out of me was pain. I was OK in bed, but when I got up the self distructive urges hit me intensely. I'm not suicidal, but really want to...
- I'm tired and getting depressed. I'm so sick of all the results of the incest. I'm getting mad about it too. That's a good thing if I can keep the anger at my father. I'm so sick of having a jumbled memory. Even being able to dissociate from a young...