Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
I need to vent and rant.
* May trigger *
I'm sick of the amputations. I'm sick of loosing my wife. I'm sick of having been sexually abused. I'm sick of the effects it has had on my whole life. I'm feeling so angry. Wow it's really coming out. I hate it so much. I'm so mad at so much abuse. How could there have been so much? If I bang any harder I'm going to break this thing. I hate my sexual fantasies. How do I scream on this thing? It sucks. I still have sexual fantasies about the female neighbor, being orally raped has also affected them and so has what my father did to me. I want to break things and destroy things and throw things and smash things.
Sorry for the rant. Not really I need to rant.
* May trigger *
I'm sick of the amputations. I'm sick of loosing my wife. I'm sick of having been sexually abused. I'm sick of the effects it has had on my whole life. I'm feeling so angry. Wow it's really coming out. I hate it so much. I'm so mad at so much abuse. How could there have been so much? If I bang any harder I'm going to break this thing. I hate my sexual fantasies. How do I scream on this thing? It sucks. I still have sexual fantasies about the female neighbor, being orally raped has also affected them and so has what my father did to me. I want to break things and destroy things and throw things and smash things.
Sorry for the rant. Not really I need to rant.
Punching bag. Long walks. Kick boxing. Jumping rope. Digging holes. Squeezing a tennis ball. Playing sports. Can help with anger and excess energy.
Remembering the pain that abuse has caused others can be a deterrent from fantasizing it against someone. When I understood how upset I got when my husband stepped past one of my boundaries, it helped me to stop stepping past his very similar boundary that I had been inconsiderate of until that time.
Knowing where your fantasies are coming from can help you process your own past and ultimately realease you from your bondage to the thoughts you wish to be rid of.
Hoping some of this makes sense.
Righteous anger is good.