loum50
Status: Spring is here.
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- I hate myself for having to depend on other people. I can't drive because of the amputations so I have to depend on my daughter in law to take me where I need to go. She knew I wanted to go somewhere tonight. Her and my son are going out to eat...
- Does anyone else hear external voices? I'm used to hearing internal voices, sometimes I welcome them, sometimes they give me a headache. Wednesday was the first time I heard external voices. It happened twice. Both times itstartled me. I talked...
- I would like to know if anyone else has a therapist that is helping them to accept their parts. For me it is embarrassing and freeing. I feel both ashamed and relieved at this diagnosis. I feel embarrassed when she asks me to talk to my parts,...
- I am so lucky to have found my current therapist. She understands me more than I understand myself. She makes her office a very safe place and she can tell when I've switched. It's wonderful to have a therapist that believes me and understands me...
- I'm not sure what is going on, maybe I'm about to have a new memory. I'm doing well. I no longer have the intense hatred for the abused little child part. I have things going on in my life, but nothing too bad. All my medical conditions are under...
- Did anyone see the news today? The Boy Scouts released the names of 1200 pedophiles they have been protecting.
- I've been doing IFS therapy now for almost 5 months and I'm staying present most of the time. It feels scary. I'm so used to switching that this feels very fragile. I'm not used to staying present and it's not comfortable.i could let myself switch,...
- I'm doing well. Better than I see myself doing, but there is much that needs to change. It feels overwhelming. Right now I'm working on the connection with my hurt child within. The daily suicidal, the self hate, the anger , the fear, the worry and...
- I don't come here too often. My wife passed away from cancer a little over a year ago. It seems like yesterday. I don't want to complain, we had 38 years together and I miss her so much. I've been working 60 hours a week to keep busy, but when I'm...
- I'm still hurting over the latest flashbacks. I know I was sexually abused by my father. What more proof do I need. I think I'm searching for a way to not believe it. I need to stop wasting my energy on that and work on accepting that it happened so...
- For as long as I can remember I have awakened between 2:00 AM and 2:30 AM in terror, most of the time screaming. I have had no memory of any dreams or nightmares or flashbacks except dreams of snakes when I was very young and one flashback of my...
- I found a face to face meeting for abuse survivors that is close to me and is supposed to be wheelchair accessible. I plan on checking it out tomorrow evening. It's not a 12 step meeting and it is peer led.
- I'm so depressed right now I can't stand it. I miss my wife terribly. I miss not being able to walk or drive because of the amputations. Two nights ago I had a nightmare about the sexual abuse and woke I terror. My job is insisting I work a lot of...
- I've been slipping into depression lately. Not major, but painful. I've been isolating, not going to meetings, feeling tired. I've only been getting on DS for short periods of time. I don't know what triggered it, but it stinks. A lot of factors are...
- When I have switched and come back I feel very confused for a while. I think I'm half in one part and half back. It feels very confusing. Does anyone else feel confused when they switch back?