loum50
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- Ever since I had that emotional flasback all the shame my father forced into me has been right on the surface. A fight with my boss last week, four hours of medical tests on Thursday are contributing. The results of the test were OK, it was the...
- It is so hard for me to be gentile to my inner child so I'm looking for songs for him. This is one I found.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwnMYZS1hSc&feature=player_detailpage
- That emotional flashback I had has triggered a major depression. I've been here before and in some ways I'm not as bad in others I'm worse. I'm feeling very needy which is the way of depression. I am definately feeling sort for my situation....
- I had some emotional flashbacks with body feelings and taste and smell, everything but visuals. It triggered a major depression and I feel so debilitated. I can't think. I go from wanting to smash everything in sight to wanting to rip my skin off to...
- I'm in enough depression that I'm confused and do not know what to do. I think I need to call my therapists office, but it's late after 10 pm. I'm not in danger of suicide, but I am self injuring. Nothing serious as long as it doesn't become...
- I have had some depression for most of my life. I had major depression and was taking prozac for a number of years. My first therapist could not work with me and sent me to one that only worked with incest survivors. I was with her 10 years and she...
- I'm not feeling very strong tonight. A few nights ago I woke up in terror/panic. It felt like someone was squezing my upper arms pinning me down and I had pain in my stomach. Closing my eyes made it worse. The urge was to get out of bed, but I had...
- I remember a dream I had as a little child. It was a room I could go to and escape and hide. I was the only one who knew about it. To get to the room you had to crawl into one of the cabinets in the kitchen and open the back of the cabinet. The room...
- When I was a kid my father would buy a bag of doughnuts and leave them on the counter till they went mouldy. He knew I had a weakness for them If I touched them hewould yell at me and let me know how worthless I was. That's why I hate father...
- I'm angry and sad and I feel cheated that I didn't have a father I could look up to. Instead of a role model I had someone who belittled and terrorized me. I'm finally getting to the anger, but the sadness is there too.
- I've done a lot of work at trying to recover memories both good and bad. Also trying to remember positive male role models I had as a child. Most of my good memories are not when I was home. Those memories are much more detailed than the memories at...
- I have been working on getting in touch with my feelings. When I do they seem intense. Probably because I've repressed them so much. I've been crying my eyes out lately. I just read an article that made me so angry. All these things are triggering...
- I hope the new year will bring healing to us all.
- I'm starting to feel angry. If I start yelling the neighbors will call the cops. So what do I do? Hitting a pillow won't do. I don't want to start breaking things. What do I do with all this fning anger? What do I do with it?
- A lot of times something triggers me and I get a delayed reaction. I don't know what I'm feeling, but I know something is going on. I may want to eat when I know I'm not hungry, or I may feel some anxioty, or I may havevurges to hurt myself, then I...