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- Is anyone else taking this drug for anemia? The side effects are scary. Most of them end in death. The drug is also supposed to shorten your life.
- I loved my mother. In therapy we were talking about the part of me that holds the shame about my sexuality.***** Trigger Wayroning ******My mother was in the room when I was sexually abused by a neighbor and she thought it was funny. That abuse...
- I don't know where to put this. Yesterday in therapy we were working on the sexual abuse that happened in bed when I was very young. I woke up this morning at 2 AM and the anxioty was too much to stay in bed. I got up and drank enough coffee to keep...
- I woke up again at 2 AM. For those of you that don't know me,I have woken up at 2 AM since childhood usually screaming. Then through medication got it down to waking up in terror. Now, with a lot more medication I wake up and usually go back to...
- Can lamictal cause you to have no ambition? It is working very well as a mood stabilizer for me. It's just that I do not feel like doing anything. I'm not feeling depressed.
- I have done a lot with my parts that are easier to accept and have started to work on ones that I am more ashamed of. This has been going well. Now I think I need to work on what I call the dark parts that I have only alluded to in therapy.I think I...
- So far I have identified 8 distinct parts.The rational male part - Usually in charge and be confused by other parts. Is usually able to feel and tolerate those feelings. He likes science, computers, ancient history and science fiction fantasy.The...
- I have so much anxioty around going to bed that I hate it. I used to wake up at 2 AM every night screaming. Then every night in terror sometimes screaming. Also having flashbacks. Now I still wake up at 2 AM, unless I wait till 1 AM or later to go...
- I've been dealing with a lot of physical health issues and have been mildly depressed. My anemia had gotten worse and I needed blood transfusions every month. They have been giving me injections for it and they have started working (I haven't need a...
- One of my child alters took control early this morning. He was still in control at therapy today. My therapist was able to at least get the rational me to at least be present as an observer. This was a very dark alter that was severely abused. This...
- I don't know where to begin. Since I was in the hospital the last time things have gone from bad to worse. My anemia has gotten very bad and I have to go to the hospital every month for transfusions which take about 9 and 1/2 hours. An indicator...
- My suicidal part is trying to take over again and I'm trying not to let it. The last time it took over it almost succeeded. I was in the hospital for 26 days, 7 in intensive care. My lungs filled up with fluid and I couldn't breath. I passed out and...
- I had a very intense therapy session today and I'm still shaking inside. I asked my therapist last week if we could concentrate on my suicidal part. This was my sixth major suicide attempt and I'm afraid I won't survive another, since I came so very...
- My latest suicide attempt has landed me in the hospital for the physical damage I caused myself. They don't know it was a suicide attempt. I'm not depressed, I just need to kill myself. I don't want to kill myself, I just need to. As soon as I'm out...
- I tried to end my pain and failed, so I'm in the hospital in the cardiac unit. They are trying to find out how much damage I did. I'm worried that it's not going to be any better when I get out and that I'll try again.