flashes....**possible triggers**

i've been having flashbacks all day......kinda upset about that......the worse thing though, is that i get these flashes....like about m rape in january since it's january now.....like i barely remember the rape, but i premember bits and pieces.....and i get these flashes of what happened......i remember i was crying in the passenger seat and he kissed me and made me kiss him back and then he kissed my neck and i was crying, sitting there just crying.....he was touching me all over i just had my bra and underwear on b/c he made me take everything else off and he started touching me and io started crying harder and said,"please don't....please....don't...." i kept saying that for about five minutes and then he told me to shu up....after fifteen minutes of touching me and my still cring and mouthing,"please don't...." he told me to get dressed and said,"i can't do anything!!!! you make me feel like i'm doing something wrong!!! I'M NOT!!! IT'S MY RIGHT!!!!!" i let him do whatever and then i left b/c he told me to.....just had to get it off my chest.....