feeling good......

feeling pretty good.....had a few suicidal thoughts this weekend.....but i recognized that i was thinking irrationally and that i was catastrophising so i was okay.....i just had a good cry and then composed myself and then told my mom how i felt later that night.....i felt that way becasue i did some homework for one of my classes and i felt liek a failure b/c i didn't do that well.......i'm so exhausted.....i go to bed around 10:30 and then wake up at 7:30.....i know i should feel awake and well rested, but i feel exhausted.....good thing i only have one class today.....and then i have group tonight.......maybe i can take a nap on the train.....that'll be good.......i can't sleep in class or when i get home.....we'll see.....