cut.........

i wanna cut right now.....i told my mom and she told me to take a medication i have for crisis so i did.....still feeling the urge to do it.....i think i will tomorrow.....but before i do, i'll call the oncall therapist and talk to them first......then i'll see how i do......my brain hurts and i feel like i pulled a muscle in my chest......i'm so frustrated and angry at myself....i just want this class and semester to be over with....i want my house back and everything back.....i wanna cut....then everything would be okay.....