selfish........

i feel so selfish......my aunt had surgery and my mom asked my uncle-her husband-if he wanted s to take their kids for the weekend...and they accepted so they're staying...and i just wanna soend time with my parents, especially my dad, alone...i mean i love my cousins and all, but i want time alone with my dad......i guess i'm just being selfish....i feel like a little kid....i also feel like crying....not so sure why though....BPD is acting up now, though.....just gotta be strong and hold it in....