third time..............

i posted a question about an incident and if was rape or not......yeah, it was rape....i feel so stupid!!!!!!!!!! that's the THIRD time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel sooooooooo stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 you would think that after the first or second rape i'd be able to pull myself together and just get out of a situation like that, but no, i didn't and couldn't.......and i feel so stupid b/c i'm supposed to be perfect.....my safety is supposed be the one thing that i can be perfect about....i couldn't even do THAT.....i couldn't stop what happeend to me.....sure i coulda called someone the second time i was raped....and sure i coulda left my third time, but i didn't....God i feel so stupid!!!!!!!!!!